Looking through social media and reading blogs, it’s hard to see how anyone’s lives are any less than perfect. This can make it embarrassing to post anything from your own life that isn’t perfect. We’re more likely to go offline, brush it under the rug or pretend it didn’t happen.
Except that everything can’t always be perfect.
I try really hard to show my real life on this blog, which means the ups and the downs.
Yesterday I found out that I hadn’t got into my first choice university for September. I’d been rejected because I’d narrowly missed out on achieving 70% on each of my modules from the chemistry and biology course I’ve been doing this year (although I was pleased to achieve a 72% average for the year!).
I tried through clearing, and after an agonising day where my mobile didn’t leave my side (and I sent my poor colleagues/friends out to get me snacks) I found out that I wasn’t successful with that either.
I was devastated. That is until I remember the story of the Drowning Man. (Fair warning, atheists look away now). Maybe this was a sign that I wasn’t supposed to go to Kings- I was originally rejected from them in January, and now have been rejected twice more- there’s only so much rejection a girl can take!!
It might not feel perfect right now, but I’m sure I’ll find a perfect solution in the end. I haven’t worked out exactly what I’m going to do yet, and still have a few options available- I’ll keep you posted.
You’re a really strong, inspiring and empowered woman – hope you know that; and there is no wonder you’ll work out a solution that’ll make you wonder ‘why did I worry in the first place?’
The best advice I could give you is, go for a run, the exhausting kind of one, and I’m sure you’ll already feel a bit better after that.
Good luck Charlie!!
Thank you so much Ginie, that means a lot 🙂
I’ve been reading your blog for a little while – as a first time marathon runner – and love it! Totally feel for you, but you’re right, it clearly wasn’t meant to be and you’ll be wondering soon why you even wanted to go to King’s! I’m sure everything will work out perfectly – guess this means you can focus on Chicago! Chin up, go for a run in the rain! 🙂
Thanks Jo! About to head out for a run- 17 miles here we go!
Sorry to hear things didn’t turn out how you hoped Charlie, but hang on, something better will be just around the corner x
I hope so!!
Don’t be too disheartened – you’re still my favourite blogger! x
haha thanks Lizzy!
Like Jo I’ve been reading your blog for a while and am running the VLM next year for charity. I find running brings out every niggle, ache and pain in my body and your blog is a really big help to keep going. I firmly believe something good comes out of every situation so while you may have been rejected by Kings, as others have said, a few months down the line you will be wondering why you wanted to go there! x
Thanks Kirsty and great job with the running! I hope you love VLM!
Sorry to hear that. As others say, it’ll work out in the end. Thanks for sharing your ups and downs with us – a lot of the time reading blogs I do feel like everyone else’s life is perfect. But we all have our challenges in life and we get through them 🙂
Thanks Hannah 🙂
Hey. I know you are disappointed, and that’s allowed, but I know it will work out for you in the end. I’ve been sat on the other side of that for a couple of days, working on Clearing calls for a University. I hate turning people away 🙁 You got a fab result in your course I am sure there will be a way for you to continue following your chosen path x
Thank you! All the people I spoke to on the phones were so lovely and helpful!
Sorry to hear that, as Maria says in the Sound of Music, “when God closes a door somewhere he opens a window” The right thing will turn up for you. You’re my favourite blogger, don’t lose heart x
Aw thank you so much 🙂
Well done for being so honest. That’s really tough & I know what it’s like to feel totally heartbroken when life doesn’t work out the way you’d planned, even though you’ve given it 110%. All I ever wanted to do was work as a barrister & after years of hard work, a lot of part-time jobs & sacrifices, I just couldn’t get enough work so I’ve had to start applying for other jobs, ALL of which have rejected me so far! It is demoralising getting rejected from jobs but my Gran always told me that what is meant for you won’t pass you so maybe the universe just has bigger (and better!) plans for you. You’re a strong person Charlie, it’s obvious from your blog, so head up & don’t lost heart 🙂
I am so sorry that your first choice didn’t work out. Gutting. But as Lasouth said above, ‘when God closes a door, somewhere he opens a window’ and I honestly believe that is right. When I look back on my dreams that didn’t come true, the thing that happened as a result was always so much better than I had dared dream it would be. So hang in there, channel that disappointment and frustration into the pavement (as it looks like you did via IG) and wait to see what will happen.
Otherwise, just book some flights to California 🙂 We have a sofa-bed you can sleep on!!
Thank you Cathryn, you never know when I might take you up on that offer 🙂
Bummer Charlie. I know how had you have been working for this. Something better is apparently meant to be, so now it is just a lesson in patience. Big hugs.
Yours is a blog I keep reading because it’s not just the edited glossy highlights, it’s realistic and it’s far more inspiring than everything being super-polished. I’m gutted for you, but know that you’re a strong, committed lady who will work it out for the best, even if that takes a little longer than you’d originally planned. You’ve got this!xx
Aww thank you Sarah!Hoping that everything will work out in the end!
I was really sorry to hear that you didn’t make it – it’s always disappointing when something like that happens but keep going and you will get there in the end. If it’s any consolation, I have found it so personally inspiring that you’ve managed to keep up a full time job, study in the evenings, work full time and train for a marathon as I’ve been trying to do something similar with a Masters and haven’t seemed to manage it nearly as well as you! ! Whenever I think it’s too much I see your blog and realise that my workload is nothing in comparison! So keep going and you’ll get there. Bex xx
Thanks so much Bex and you’re doing a great job too!!! xx
Sorry to hear that Charlie. I believe everything happens for a reason, and I’m sure whatever path you choose to take it will be the right one and everything will work out.
Sorry you didn’t get your first choice. I know you’ll be disappointed but I’m a great believer that “what’s for you won’t go by you”. It will all work out perfectly in the end.